How many times have I cried while taking public transportation? Let me just say that letting your tears fall freely will make it less noticeable to other people. This happens with just the slightest trigger on bad days of living the life.
I used to think I was an expert on repressing my feelings. But no matter how good you are at it, one does not have unlimited storage capacity. Everything just flows out; almost drowning you that there can only be one thing in mind that you know will surely numb you. It works like magic. I really don't wanna start "facing" all those emotions now like what everyone says should be. Yes, I'm sad and lost and facing that is not something I look forward to doing.
I used to think I was an expert on repressing my feelings. But no matter how good you are at it, one does not have unlimited storage capacity. Everything just flows out; almost drowning you that there can only be one thing in mind that you know will surely numb you. It works like magic. I really don't wanna start "facing" all those emotions now like what everyone says should be. Yes, I'm sad and lost and facing that is not something I look forward to doing.
"...some people are particularly distressed by their painful feelings--due to the biology or psychology of their genetics, or what was present or absent in their upbringing, or usually some combination of both. Because upsetting feelings are so difficult to bear they,
understandably, want to get rid of them quickly. They want to control them. And it is difficult for such folks to rely on others for help because that brings in a whole other set of potentially painful feelings, as relationships inevitably do."
Why Addictions Are So Hard To Break
Peeling back another layer of the addiction onion
August 15, 2012 by Jennifer Kunst, Ph.D.
